Should I Go to the Emergency Room or Wait It Out?

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by Lisa Weber |

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The pounding of my heart echoes clearly in my ears. I can see the thumps through the skin on my chest. It’s erratic, beating slowly and calmly one minute, and out of control the next. It’s like a toddler is in my chest playing a new set of drums — no rhythm, just a mix of a few gentle taps and bundles of bashing booms.

Throughout my life as a lab rat, I’ve had many tests done to my heart. Every six months, I go through procedures to study its pressures. So far, my ticker has been free from disease. But scleroderma can attack at any time. And when it does, it comes for my organs hard and fast.

The wild thumps of my heart have not been letting up, so I called my cardiologist to make an appointment.

“If your symptoms worsen or you feel like this is an emergency, head straight to the hospital. Otherwise, we’ll see you in three weeks.”

Putting this decision in my hands is like handing me the controls to the next space shuttle launch. News flash: I’m not a doctor!

Better safe than sorry

It may seem like a no-brainer — go to the emergency room and get checked out.

While I agree it’s better to be safe than sorry, there’s more to it for people with chronic illness. Every few months, my story repeats itself. A frightening symptom pops up and I go to the ER. They run all kinds of tests and send me home because they have absolutely no idea what’s causing the issue.

If you’ve ever seen the movie “Groundhog Day,” you can appreciate the frustration this brings. Reliving the same scenario over and over makes me hesitant to return.

Not an easy decision

The emotional strain this puts on my family is extremely upsetting. Every time I leave for the hospital, my entire family begins to panic. It’s a lot for my husband, children, and parents to handle. Although doctors are likely to send me home without answers, test results can sometimes take days. My children usually get kisses before bedtime every night, and they know when I’m not there.

Equally burdensome are the financial strains. I already meet my high insurance deductible every year, so we won’t be going on lavish vacations anytime soon. When I add in a few hospital stays, vacations are the least of our worries. Those charges pile up even with insurance. For the amount of money we shell out to the hospital, we should have a beachfront vacation home by now!

As you can see, it’s not as easy as “your life is more important than money.” In theory, that’s absolutely correct. But mortgage companies, grocery stores, and gas stations don’t care if you have exorbitant medical bills. Living costs money.

To make my choice even more arduous, every now and then that ER visit lands me in the hospital for a serious issue. Just seven months ago, I was rushed to the intensive care unit in critical condition. I suffered a major blood clot in the artery that runs from my heart to my brain. I had more than six strokes and lost some of my vision and sensation on the right side of my body. The worst part was that I had waited a week before going to the hospital. My choice to wait almost killed me.

Cautiously making the best decision

On one hand, I want to get peace of mind from amazing doctors. On the other, I want to spare my family the burdens of that choice. I fully understand that not going could lead to unimaginable heartache for my loved ones. The “what ifs” weigh heavily on my mind. That’s why I monitor my vitals carefully.

For now, I demanded an electrocardiogram at my doctor’s office to rule out a heart attack and other critical issues. While I couldn’t be seen by my doctor, the staff did call to let me know that my heart’s signals are strong, despite the palpitations.

I have a bag packed in case my symptoms worsen and I make a quick decision to go to the ER. I’ve also scheduled additional appointments and diagnostic tests with my heart specialist.

Lisa’s hospital bag is packed with warm socks, gloves, chargers, and basic hygiene products. (Photo by Lisa Weber)

This is my life. Scleroderma is unpredictable and relentless.

Making the decision to go to the emergency room can be extremely challenging for people living with chronic illness. If we went every time a frightening or painful symptom appeared, we would be permanent residents at the hospital. Worse, we might be called hypochondriacs.

Be patient with us. We have to battle our bodies every day. Support us while we make difficult decisions that affect us and our families emotionally and financially.

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Ruth catchpole avatar

Ruth catchpole

This awful disease certainly needs more awareness, Its a waiting game a very painful one,

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

Ruth, that is spot on! Praying for a cure!

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freida rogers avatar

freida rogers

I rushed to the ER with an extremely rapid heartbeat and shortness of breath and was put in the waiting room by myself for 2 hours (WHICH SCARED ME). They found nothing wrong with me and sent me home after about 5 hours. I am afraid to go to the ER.

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

That’s definitely frightening, Freida! Being sent home is a good thing, but it certainly makes you hesitant to go back the next time.

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Lisa Lundquist avatar

Lisa Lundquist

Hi Lisa....I think going to the ER for heart and breathing issues makes perfect sense. I really feel for you on making those decisions though. I have just recently found a pattern for myself with the rapid heartbeat. I believe my symptoms are triggered by hormone fluctuations and my cycle. I have started taking a hormone balancing herbal tincture two weeks before my cycle and so far...no more wild palpitations. See if you can find a pattern when you have them. We have to come at this as a team -dont we!

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

Thank you for the suggestion, Lisa. I will keep track of it. I’m so happy you found relief. It really takes a village to get through life with this disease.

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Ranel avatar

Ranel

I just came home from a 5 day hospital stay after debating for half a day of debating..”should I go?” The 8 hour stay in the freezing ER before getting a room was enough to make me more miserable. I almost felt like ER docs thought I was overacting. Let alone friends who are used to people getting sick then getting better. I, as you all know, don’t ever get “cured”.

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

Ranel, you are so right about not coming home healed. It actually took me a long time to fully grasp that concept. Im glad you’re home. Stay warm and keep fighting!

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Doralee avatar

Doralee

I’ve been to the ER more times than I can count at this point. I’m forced in due to the gastrointestinal issues that are caused when my system becomes paralyzed due to my scleroderma. The guilt I feel every time I put my husband through this process with me is as painful as the episode itself. It is indeed part of the battle!

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

Doralee, everything about this disease is hard. I’m glad you have your husband by your side. Keep reminding yourself that you’re not doing this to him, scleroderma is.

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Dannette Adams avatar

Dannette Adams

I have never thought to go to the hospital, I remain home when the flare up comes on. The mental part of this is very heavy for me. Recently diagnosed with Raynard’s and Sclerodactyly as well as hearing there is no medication to help with it. No cure I feel so helpless and sad.

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Dannette avatar

Dannette

I have never thought to go to the hospital, I remain home when the flare up comes on. The mental part of this is very heavy for me. Recently diagnosed with Raynard’s and Sclerodactyly as well as hearing there is no medication to help with it. No cure I feel so helpless and sad.

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

Oh Dannette, I’m sorry to hear that you’re feeling helpless and sad. Find ways to stay positive and to be grateful you’re still here with us. I do believe a cure is coming! And new medications are always becoming available. Stay on top of news and bring ideas to your doctors. You’ve got this!

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Catherine avatar

Catherine

Lisa, you inspire me to keep going every time I read about you!!!!!

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

I’m so happy to hear that my columns help, Catherine! You’ve got this! Stay strong and keep going.

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margitta avatar

margitta

Hi Lisa,
another brilliant article! I think about you sometimes, hoping you keep up your strengst and keep you in my prayers. Did you see the Niagara Falls lit up for ss awareness ? How beautiful.
Er - I have been sent home by docs telling me they know nothing about autoimmune diseases. After the usual intake tests, nothing could be seen other than I am just fine. You are sooo right, its hard for us hypocondriacs!!

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

Hi Margitta! How are you doing? I didn’t know they lit the falls again! I saw it a few years ago and it made me so emotional. It’s a beautiful way to bring awareness. I’m sorry you got the “you’re fine” response from doctors. That’s so frustrating! Don’t we wish that was the case! But then again, all these little challenges make us stronger. It was good to hear from you again! Still praying for you too!

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Sonny Amiri avatar

Sonny Amiri

Hi Lisa, I am a male in my high sixties who has been diagnosed with scleroderma for over a decade. Well written article! I sometimes struggle with ER decision making too. As young as you are I am sure you will see a cure way before getting as old as I am! 😊 Just continue being positive and keep hope alive! Meanwhile continue enjoying life and your beautiful daughters and nice husband as much as you can because scleroderma or not time will fly by very fast! ❤❤😘😘

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

You are so right, Sonny! Life goes by so quickly and it’s important to make the best of it! Thank you for the reminder and encouragement! Wishing you lots of good days!

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Alma C Alsip avatar

Alma C Alsip

I can relate to these comments too. I was diagnosed in 1995, but had it years before it was identified. It has caused many other health problems, I'm now 74 with severe myopathy, raynauds among others, I too stuggle about seeking the ER, but prayers helps and God is faithful, so I put my trust in Him to know when I should or shouldn't go. Prayers for all.

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Lisa Weber avatar

Lisa Weber

You are so right Alma! I also find it helpful to put it in God’s hands. The hard part is being patient and silent so I can see/hear his signs. Praying for a cure for us all!

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