The medical police, aka my cardiologist team, have advised me to do no more than very gentle walks. I am not permitted to do anything more intense because we are waiting for cardiology test results. No weight training, no cycling, no strenuous kickboxing sessions.
That is of great relief to me, as I wasn’t going to attempt any of the aforementioned types of exercise anyway, since doing so would necessitate squeezing myself into my Lycra pants.
The thing is, I used to be a gym bunny. Clearly, this was in the past, but my claim to fame is that I entered a body-shaping contest and gained a fairly respectable third place. (Disclosure: This was about 20 years ago.)
The point is that I actually loved exercising, but those days are gone. Having scleroderma has somehow affected my heart (the jury is still out on exactly how), which means any sort of physical exertion renders me breathless and terribly lightheaded. It isn’t very pleasant and certainly has not inspired me to do any type of exercise at all.
Very slow, sedate, and short walks are all I can manage now, and those are few and far between. Not only do I carry around an increased body weight due to lack of conditioning, but I also carry the burden of guilt. I know I should be doing more physical activity and I desperately want to. I’m not afraid of a full-on workout or power walk for an hour or so, but I am scared of how it would make me feel and what might happen, thanks to scleroderma. The fear is real!
I am not alone in my anxiety about getting back into exercise again. It seems to be a problem for many scleroderma patients because of fatigue, pain, or shortness of breath, among many other issues this disease introduces.
I’m not afraid of the feeling I used to get after pushing myself hard at the gym when I was well. The only way I can describe that particular physical experience is to say it feels like a “healthy” type of exhaustion and breathlessness. But these days, even taking a shower makes me feel as if I will pass out. I am eager for my cardiologist to get to the bottom of how scleroderma is affecting my heart.
I am looking forward to the results of my recent cardiac tests because I hope that once they know exactly what is wrong, I can begin physical rehabilitation. I have an optimistic belief that one day I may get back into the gym.
When I worked as a counselor, my philosophy and resulting practice were to always remember that each client was a unique individual. While I was trained primarily in one main therapeutic approach, I decided early in my career to take an eclectic methodology with each person. I noticed after many years of working with clients that rather than trying to force each one to use the type of therapy that suited me, it was much more helpful to invent a novel therapeutic approach that suited each individual.
This principle could apply to scleroderma patients trying to begin an exercise program. I am hopeful that once we know what is wrong with my heart, there will be a kind-hearted, skilled physical therapist who might just be able to rehabilitate me. It will be someone who appreciates my struggles and can figure out a tailor-made plan.
Although I may never compete in a body-shaping contest again, I am certain I still have my Lycra gym pants tucked away in the murky depth of my wardrobe somewhere. Now to muster up the energy to find them.
I will keep you all posted on my exercise journey because, believe me, if I can do it, anyone can.
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