Surviving a Scleroderma Flare-Up: What a Nightmare!

With the passing of Halloween last week and my mind turning to all things nightmarish, I have noticed that living  with systemic scleroderma could be referred to as a “horror movie.” This particular Halloween, scleroderma didn’t fail me in terms of providing its own ugly contribution.

While Halloween is not hugely celebrated in New Zealand, there is a growing tradition involving the local kids dressed in some pretty cool outfits, ringing the doorbell, and enthusiastically greeting homeowners with “trick or treat!!!”

I did end up with a surprise “trick” the day after Halloween. A nasty one, in fact, courtesy of scleroderma. 

Once again (as has happened on other occasions in the past), I was ambushed by a horrible scleroderma flare-up, totally unexpected and unanticipated. It was almost as if scleroderma was playing the part of the mutated zombie, using a flare-up to then turn me into a zombie!

I’m certain all those who suffer with autoimmune diseases would agree that if flare-ups could be predicted, then we would take measures to avoid these abrupt and painful experiences at all costs. For me, I see no correlation between my diet, exercise, sleep, or medications and the onset of one; I am totally surprised every time.

Personally, my flare-ups generally begin with a sudden increase in pain. It usually begins in my fingers and wrists and progresses to my elbows, shoulders, ankles, and feet. And then the pain increases rapidly over a few hours. An increase in my fatigue levels match the progression of my pain, and this is closely followed by swelling in the inflamed joints. 

I also struggle mentally during a flare-up. The pain is extremely challenging, and it is frustrating not to be able to do simple things. The real difficulty for me is the way a flare-up has the ability to grind my life to a halt. It doesn’t seem fair that scleroderma has this kind of power over me.  

Prior to becoming a scleroderma patient, I’d always been someone who was able to plan ahead. I was able to execute and achieve projects, plan arrangements, and attend prior commitments. Pairing someone like me with scleroderma and it’s nasty unpredictable flare-ups results in an impossible combination.  

Accommodating to both my own needs and those of others has to stop while I attempt to fight the zombie! When a flare-up occurs, scleroderma appears to come out on top. I certainly look and behave like the walking dead at the time.

It’s hard to stay vigilant when I don’t know when a flare-up is lying in wait for me, as it could happen at any time. But I am reassured that I know this monster intimately. I live with scleroderma, and I’ve survived many a flare-up. Yes, I get a shock when one starts, and I become a bit discombobulated. However, I have a bag of tricks that includes heaps of resting, a course of prednisone (a godsend in a flare situation), cranking up my anti-inflammatory diet, an increase in topical and systemic pain relief, heat packs, and hot showers — just to name a few.  

In my horror movie, while the beast thinks it is winning, this scleroderma warrior knows that my zombification has never been permanent. Flare-ups are always temporary, and to date, they all have passed. It is powerful knowing that together with my bag of tricks, I always have enough power to take on the enemy and come out the other side fighting!

As the famous affirmation goes,“this too shall pass.”

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