I’m going to fess up: sometimes I Google my symptoms.
I know it’s not a sensible thing to do, especially when I come across a website that goes into details about disease progression and prognosis. After all, each case of scleroderma is different.
While I realize it’s not a good idea, unless I am using a reputable well-researched site, sometimes I get desperate. When I have a particularly distressing symptom, I can’t seem to help myself.
Just before Christmas, I found myself online, combing the internet for information to help me understand why my breathlessness and other related symptoms were getting worse. I did this despite reassurances from my cardiologist.
On one particularly bad day, I emailed my rheumatologist who is my primary care physician. She was on holiday but, in her absence, recommended I see my general practitioner (GP) as soon as possible.
I like my GP; he has a decent understanding of systemic scleroderma, and he keeps up to date with my progress by reading the letters he receives from my specialists.
Having described my symptoms — and I didn’t hold back — he looked me straight in the eyes and suggested I get a second opinion.
Wow! His response blew me away; I hadn’t expected it.
Initially, I felt uncomfortable about the idea. I had been referred to my current cardiologist by my rheumatologist several years ago. She is an extremely meticulous rheumy, so I don’t question her referrals — and besides my cardiologist was always so friendly.
Despite my unease, I listened to the small voice in my head alerting me to my progressive physical symptoms. I didn’t hold out much hope of solving my medical mysteries, but my GP’s response had confirmed my suspicions.
My new cardiologist was insightful and thoughtful as well as conscientious, rigorous, and comprehensive. I am currently undergoing in-depth investigations, and we are already finding answers.
While my first cardiologist had been amiable and reassuring, looking back on my consultations with him, I realize that we had spent a lot of time engaged in friendly small talk with little effort made toward more complicated investigations.
We don’t often understand the dysfunction of our situation until we have something with which to compare it. Had I realized what a difference a curious and enthusiastic doctor would make, I would not have spent the past two years suffering without understanding.
I’m still not convinced that Googling medical websites is helpful. However, I can say that there is something to be gained by listening to your inner voice and following up on this with confidence. I’m pleased I was brave enough to go for that second opinion.
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